Memories torment me Like rusted steel of barbed wire Before I am reborn, watch with me as we see the toppling of an empire The crumbling of the pillars, echoes deeply inside the hollow shell of a man, once proud The smell of burning flesh, smoke from eternal fire, Filling up my lungs, it is my one desire You brought this on yourself Burning alive as you try to claw away from hell Rest here for eternity No turning back now or ever As time bends itself from its infinite line To give me what I’ve always wanted; justified Feel the skin melt away from the extreme heat Blood boils, eyes burn from gasoline Feel the pain as it starts to cut deep I’ve burned myself alive in regret of all I’ve done I hate to hear you scream The sound still haunts me in my dreams Weeping aloud is your only hope, return to ashes and never learn how to cope To give me what I’ve always wanted; justified Now kneel before me, and answer with your blood It’s all over now, you can be at peace I’m glad I got to be the one to bring my own release Feel the skin melt away from the extreme heat Blood boils, eyes burn from gasoline Feel the pain as it starts to cut deep I’ve burned myself alive in regret of all I’ve done I think it’s funny how The tables turned around You got back what you gave Suffer in the hell you’ve created Memories torment me As time bends itself from its infinite line To give me what I’ve always wanted; justified Now kneel before me, and answer with your blood It’s all over now, you can be at peace I’m glad I got to be the one to bring my own release I’m not holding back This is for all the years That I’ve spent with my doubt, and all my childhood fears

I need to feel alive Nothing but frozen bones, outside the walls of time Fill the void that I tore myself It's given me a one way ticket to hell I’m dead inside No way out, but into another I'm left to writhe Someone put me six feet under Have I found a new way to live Spill out my blood for the ones that I never want My eyes are getting weak. my heart is growing cold; this haunted life of mine is getting fucking old Please take me away from this world, I can’t take it anymore My heart ache continues; to push on or not, or to find another whore My skin is longing, it wants to feel your heat All over emptiness no different than the words I speak The feeling is so cleansing A needed shot of hope Your hands caress my being And I can’t let it go Soulless I am I used your flesh and now you’re dead to me I cannot repent for my sins this time The beating of my heart is nothing but a lie I need to feel alive Nothing but frozen bones outside the walls of time Fill the void that I tore myself It's given me a one way ticket to hell My eyes are getting weak. my heart is growing cold; this haunted life of mine is getting fucking old Please take me away from this world, I can’t take it anymore My heart ache continues; to push on or not, or to find another whore My skin is longing, it wants to feel your heat All over emptiness no different than the words I speak The feeling is so cleansing A needed shot of hope Your hands caress my being And I can’t let it go I am a bastard. a piece of shit that should be dead Take me out into the fields and put a bullet in my head I should have never spoke, should've never taken a breath To lead you in this nightmare, I'm no different from the rest Please take me away from this world, I can’t take it anymore My heart ache continues; to push on or not, or to find another whore My skin is longing, it wants to feel your heat All over emptiness no different than the words I speak The feeling is so cleansing A needed shot of hope Your hands caress my being And I can’t let it go Soulless I am I used your flesh and now you’re dead to me I cannot repent for my sins this time The beating of my heart is nothing but a lie Breathe me in Don’t let go You said you loved him But now I know

No longer whole, my body's form wasted Memories of anger and sadness infected Seeping through the wounds of my self-doubt Please help me I am a prisoner here Don’t know how long it's been trapped in my own skin Living this life with my burdens and fears Please help to find the strength found within The days go by and nothing yet has changed Look upon the face of human’s rage The order isn't perfect, though it ought to be Whatever goes through their minds, it must be about me The isolation I feel within myself Unable to scream or fight my way out The nightmares are never-ending When I fall asleep, I fall into my hell I am not allowed to speak anymore because my jaw was broken by my inner spirit He doesn’t want me to speak so I can get him out, instead he fills my head with thoughts of people who I've let down Gluttonous pigs in man skin force me to consume my mortality My legs can't handle the trembling weight, oh god please take me from this life

Pitiful it's broken I see the light as I'm created by the void The world is turning as the sun is turning black The fire fades as the earth begins to cool A frozen wasteland in my dreams Stay wide awake until you can’t no more And feel the needles of consciousness penetrate your eyes I'll enter through your escape and tear out from the inside You can’t escape from me No matter what you use You humans are so funny A species born to be used Time stopping for a moment to realize I’m not dreaming Echoes of laughter fading as the pain starts invading You see it in your mind The fear that you try to keep inside but now Being forced to bleed it out Stay wide away until you can’t no more And feel the needles of consciousness penetrate your eyes I'll enter through your escape and tear out from the inside I'm done fucking with you I want to taste real pain Let me dig a little deeper, cut right to the vein Time stopping for a moment to realize I’m not dreaming Echoes of laughter fading as the pain starts invading The seconds won’t stop passing, frozen in fear of yourself Crawling up my bedside is my nightmare while I'm wrapped in barbed wire I see the light as I am A frozen wasteland in my dreams I'm fucking done with you I want to taste real pain, let me dig a little deeper cut right to the vein Maybe a memory or a thought you had will put your back against the wall and make me complete These visions have built up in my mind I cannot see the future as I’m running out of time As I lay in the arms of this sullen dark I descend into the depths and from there I shall depart Meaningless feelings coursing through my very flesh I let it overtake and realize the art that is death My eyes roll back as I’m pulled further in An unholy man I was born to sin

See a world of pain, grown up without a purpose Sweatpants tighten around his neck, was his life really worth it? He has no friends he has no family No one to depend on but fucking me How was he supposed to deal with it? The pain of loss never really felt like shit A mom who was overcome with addiction, a father who was never there to begin with As the years go on, I had to keep searching For a reason of why I was hurting I never found out why I had to live this lie So, at the age of thirteen I truly meant to die What should I do the pain is getting too real, what should I do? What should I do the pain is getting too much, what should I do? Fuck it, go Go on and live your life, but don’t try to blame me for leaving you behind I was a kid, what do you want from me? Live your life with no regrets is all they ever fucking said to me I wish that I had someone to hold on to But through all the bullshit all I was actually grabbing at was straws, you fucking loser How was he supposed to deal with it? The pain of loss never really felt like shit A mom who was overcome with addiction, a father who was never there to begin with No one was there to teach me right from wrong, I had to find out it was me all along As the years go on, I had to keep searching For a reason of why I was hurting I never found out why I had to live this lie So, at the age of thirteen I truly meant to die What should I do the pain is getting too real, what should I do? What should I do the pain is getting too much, what should I do? Fuck it, go Go on and live your life, but don’t try to blame me for leaving you behind

I've tried to find the words, but nothing seems to work Inside my chest a void of fear and anger seems to lurk Step back to see the picture of something vastly bigger I don’t feel anything either, forced to see the truth much clearer My memories all a blur, can't pull my thoughts together Drown me as I recall the darkness of my conscience Your words of safety echo throughout my hollowed eyes Because I trusted someone, now condemning me to die No one can hear you, if you don’t say a fucking word The souls of innocence will always go unheard If you don’t have the strength to stand and fight Then I assure you that you won’t survive the night The darkest colors stain my eyes I can't see past the faces of the guilty Your words of safety echo throughout my hollowed eyes Because I trusted someone, now condemning me to die My memories all a blur, can’t pull my thoughts together Drown me as I recall the darkness of my conscience One in six have had their innocence stripped from them Two thirds of them are unheard You are not alone, and we will stand together to face this monster Now fucking drown in sorrow and regret You lived your life by your own accord and ended up killing me Sorrow and regret I've tried to find the words, but nothing seems to work Inside my chest a void of fear and anger seems to lurk Step back to see the picture of something vastly bigger I don’t feel anything either, forced to see the truth much clearer My memories all a blur, can’t pull my thoughts together Drown me as I recall the darkness of my conscience Your words of safety echo throughout my hollowed eyes Because I trusted someone, now condemning me to die

I'm fucking drowning on my blood My heart rates getting faster I can see the blood leaves my eyes Shriveled up deflating without the pressure What have I done to be delivered into hell like this? I can’t be helped I'm already executed Convicted of treason against my own will The gallows reign supreme amongst other punishments To receive the highest way of death Expel the sympathy for yourself You are not worthy of a death so honorable And yet you beg to be cleansed and purified You’ve been found guilty and became a martyr I think this climb you've had, will make you fall harder Preaching and cheating your words were deceiving You thought that I would not see through your disguise Karma has caught up the issues you've brought up and now to be forced to consume all the rotten flesh Eat it all Try to call for help it seems You get no mercy from me or my fiends I let it go for as long as I could The voices burning me alive, telling me I've done nothing but tell lies Scream for mercy but you won’t find none here And I will bathe in blood, baptized in fear a holy agent who delivers sinners To their rightful place amongst the fire and brimstone So, stop your struggling and accept your fate because you make me sick A bloody mess nothing but a melted corpse now Judgement is complete but there’s still remnants of you Suffer a coward’s death and be completely vanquished Your father made his choice and that's what you will live with Bestow upon yourself the pain of loss Come to grips with it It's far too late for you The clock has finally ran out And now you've been undone I let it go for as long as I could The voices burning me alive telling me I've done nothing but tell lies Scream for mercy but you won’t find none here And I will bathe in blood Convicted of treason against my own will The gallows reign supreme amongst other punishments To receive the highest way of death Expel the sympathy for yourself I'm so sorry What have I done to myself? I can’t keep going on like this No longer a cry for help

Running from a fate we can’t evade, our time here is numbered Rotting evermore, trapped in this hollow shell Day in, day out we succumb to the abyss Fools imbedded in their own self righteousness Acting as if pray and predator, yet we are all of the same filth God wouldn’t have us bury the ones who came before us An all-knowing god wouldn’t allow us to suffer as such Eternal damnation We are doomed to fail from birth Infernal damnation Death is salvation, we are no more The day we return to the earth from whence we came, for we don’t know its consequences As we peer into the stars, expecting a response Why have our creators left us? If we are not alone, are the next to fall? If we are the last, are we the last survivors? Eternal damnation We are doomed to failed from birth Infernal damnation Death is salvation, we are no more As we watch our skin peel away from our flesh, as we feel our bones deteriorate from the inside and become blissfully unaware as our psyche withers away We can only watch as the maggots consume us from the inside Purgatory is not somewhere we go once we expire, but what we endure from birth How is it that we shy away from desolation, yet our race has never known anything otherwise? As we’ve been rejected so swiftly from Eden, now we must endure phase two of a plan crafted by some cruel overseer If we are not alone, are the next to fall? If we are the last, are we the last survivors? Eternal damnation We are doomed to failed from birth Infernal damnation Death is salvation, we are no more